its been forever..

I feel like im trapped in my own little world. I don't know why i haven't been writing but anyway i am now right?..its less than 5 weeks until i leave my little town and its getting quite close to be hard hitting..i am going to miss everything ive learnt and known but im going to a better place a new place where i can learn and experience new things which is what ive always wanted! ''i want to be where those people are i wanna see wanna see em dancing'' The Little Mermaid. its my favorite!! just being here makes me ill its not that i don't like the people in it well most of them anyway! i just need to be somewhere else somewhere where other people understand me and what i love to do. 
ive learnt over the years happiness comes around when you do something you enjoy! so im going to do exactly that! sorry if im boring you i just needed to let all this out somewhere! i'll leave you with the song that's inspired me since i was a little girl..


Judy garland.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
why then oh why can't i..

So its been nearly a month..

Well hello there, i know its been a while and you probably forgotton all about little miss jarm but anyways im back and i will try to write i promise this time!! not alots been happening really nothing different

• exams
• singing
• having a whole lot of fun
• laughing smiling
• dancing
• crying
• drinking
• thinking about keaving whoooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
• and being me in general..

so i have come to the point where being me is actually pretty cool..
But over the weeks i have become slitely obseesed just a tad over a certain TWO musicals

WICKED    and      AVENUE Q!!
they are the best things since shakespere and ''i know its exactly what i need'' i love it :)

so apart from being ME and a tad over excited about musicals singing and dancing nothings changed that much but guess what one more thing........ONLY 125 DAYS till i leave im so excited!! cant control myself actually :) so the count down is under way!

thats all for now children but keep blogging its fun brightens up them lonesome afternoons Jessie J is OUT!  <3

The song that listens to my hearbreak..Taylor swift.

Once upon a time i believe it was a tuesday

When i caught your eye

And we caught onto something i hold on to the night

You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding? 'cause it seems to me

This thing is breaking down we almost never speak

I don't feel welcome anymore

Baby what happened? please tell me

'cause one second it was perfect

Now you're halfway out the door

And i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all

And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh oh

Oh and it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause i was there when you said forever and always

Was i out of line? did i say something way too honest

That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?

I looked into your eyes thought i knew you for a minute

Now i'm not so sure

So here's to everything coming down to nothing

Here's to silence that cuts me to the core

Where is this going? thought i knew for a minute

But i don't anymore

And i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all

And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh oh

Oh and it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause i was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it baby i don't think so

Oh oh

Oh back up baby back up did you forget everything?

Back up baby back up did you forget everything?

'cause it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause i was there when you said forever and always

Oh i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all

And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause i was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it baby you said forever and always..

its been a v v long time..

Life is just a wirl pool at the moment sometime im at the edge trying and life is good there but then there is times where im caught right in the middle and i just cant seem to get out!! other than that i think im alright i mean alright is a kinda word that means you could be better and i could but mehh...quite loving my mother atm she's being a flower!! so i guess my life isnt that interesting as other but im moving to london if that excites anyone!! ahh well bye guys keep blogging..xx

Another year has flown by and another year of age has dawned...

Hi m'lovely's It's my birthday 16 at last! end of. bye :)

hmmmm...

Well its been a while bloggers nice to chat again i suppose!! not alot is happening to me atm really apart from its my birthday on saturday and im rather excited to turn 16 at last!! ive landed myself with a new phone and its rather snazyyy apart from the fact i cannot work the bloody thing to save my life!! i also decided it would be a good idea to have a spray tan for the weekend but it really hasnt turned out very well and im on the edge of slitting hahaha lol jk fml. well im gonna leave you with a song cos its just beautiful and its just how i feel atm... keep blogging and keep smiling children i am :) xxx

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare.
See how I'll leave, with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

The scars of your love, remind me of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't feeling

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

Baby I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love, remind you of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't feeling

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep

You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul threw every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(I wish you never gonna miss you)
We could of had it all
We could of had it all (I wish you never gonna miss you)
It all(3 times)

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat
We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it
You played it to the beat
<3

i am the happiest person alive 'Right now'.

So im about to brag about the biggest thing that EVER happened to me as i said i few days ago i was bricking it for my audtion at Redroofs in london (stage school) totally nailed my audition :) and following that i had a lovely looking letter on the table when i came home from college today saying that my place there is guaranteed!!! :DD i honestly screamed the house down my mum was crying and everything im soooo proud of myself its wiered because iv never felt like this in my whole life hahaha :) < told you i cant stop smiling hehehe :)
so thats all really apart form telling everyone and my face is just like a clown who cant change his face form smiling yup life's gooood :P

nice talking to yous love ya's <3 xxxxxxxxxx

ps. keep blogging.
pps. happy birthday to maria.
ppps. the sweeds are cute :) and abby of course,
pppps. thanks.

Dot.

One song One dance One lifetime One chance!