Thursday, 28 July 2011

its been forever..

I feel like im trapped in my own little world. I don't know why i haven't been writing but anyway i am now right?..its less than 5 weeks until i leave my little town and its getting quite close to be hard hitting..i am going to miss everything ive learnt and known but im going to a better place a new place where i can learn and experience new things which is what ive always wanted! ''i want to be where those people are i wanna see wanna see em dancing'' The Little Mermaidits my favorite!! just being here makes me ill its not that i don't like the people in it well most of them anyway! i just need to be somewhere else somewhere where other people understand me and what i love to do. 
ive learnt over the years happiness comes around when you do something you enjoy! so im going to do exactly that! sorry if im boring you i just needed to let all this out somewhere! i'll leave you with the song that's inspired me since i was a little girl..


Judy garland.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow

why then oh why can't i..

Monday, 2 May 2011

So its been nearly a month..

Well hello there, i know its been a while and you probably forgotton all about little miss jarm but anyways im back and i will try to write i promise this time!! not alots been happening really nothing different
  • exams
  • singing
  • having a whole lot of fun
  • laughing smiling
  • dancing
  • crying
  • drinking
  • thinking about keaving whoooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
  • and being me in general..
so i have come to the point where being me is actually pretty cool..
But over the weeks i have become slitely obseesed just a tad over a certain TWO musicals

WICKED    and      AVENUE Q!!
they are the best things since shakespere and ''i know its exactly what i need'' i love it :)

so apart from being ME and a tad over excited about musicals singing and dancing nothings changed that much but guess what one more thing........ONLY 125 DAYS till i leave im so excited!! cant control myself actually :) so the count down is under way!

thats all for now children but keep blogging its fun brightens up them lonesome afternoons Jessie J is OUT!  <3

Monday, 4 April 2011

The song that listens to my hearbreak..Taylor swift.

Once upon a time i believe it was a tuesday
When i caught your eye
And we caught onto something i hold on to the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding? 'cause it seems to me

This thing is breaking down we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened? please tell me
'cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door

And i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh oh

Oh and it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause i was there when you said forever and always

Was i out of line? did i say something way too honest
That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes thought i knew you for a minute
Now i'm not so sure

So here's to everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? thought i knew for a minute
But i don't anymore

And i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh oh

Oh and it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause i was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby i don't think so
Oh oh

Oh back up baby back up did you forget everything?
Back up baby back up did you forget everything?

'cause it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause i was there when you said forever and always

Oh i stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause i was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby you said forever and always..

Friday, 1 April 2011

its been a v v long time..

Life is just a wirl pool at the moment sometime im at the edge trying and life is good there but then there is times where im caught right in the middle and i just cant seem to get out!! other than that i think im alright i mean alright is a kinda word that means you could be better and i could but mehh...quite loving my mother atm she's being a flower!! so i guess my life isnt that interesting as other but im moving to london if that excites anyone!! ahh well bye guys keep blogging..xx

Thursday, 17 March 2011

hmmmm...

Well its been a while bloggers nice to chat again i suppose!! not alot is happening to me atm really apart from its my birthday on saturday and im rather excited to turn 16 at last!! ive landed myself with a new phone and its rather snazyyy apart from the fact i cannot work the bloody thing to save my life!! i also decided it would be a good idea to have a spray tan for the weekend but it really hasnt turned out very well and im on the edge of slitting hahaha lol jk fml. well im gonna leave you with a song cos its just beautiful and its just how i feel atm... keep blogging and keep smiling children i am :) xxx


There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare.
See how I'll leave, with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

The scars of your love, remind me of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't feeling

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

Baby I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love, remind you of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't feeling

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep

You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul threw every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(I wish you never gonna miss you)
We could of had it all
We could of had it all (I wish you never gonna miss you)
It all(3 times)

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat
We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it
You played it to the beat
<3

Wednesday, 9 March 2011

i am the happiest person alive 'Right now'.

So im about to brag about the biggest thing that EVER happened to me as i said i few days ago i was bricking it for my audtion at Redroofs in london (stage school) totally nailed my audition :) and following that i had a lovely looking letter on the table when i came home from college today saying that my place there is guaranteed!!! :DD i honestly screamed the house down my mum was crying and everything im soooo proud of myself its wiered because iv never felt like this in my whole life hahaha :) < told you i cant stop smiling hehehe :)
so thats all really apart form telling everyone and my face is just like a clown who cant change his face form smiling yup life's gooood :P

nice talking to yous love ya's <3 xxxxxxxxxx

ps. keep blogging.
pps. happy birthday to maria.
ppps. the sweeds are cute :) and abby of course,
pppps. thanks.

Thursday, 3 March 2011

Loving the life...

Well, just like the title really i am loving life at the moment i mean i have the friends i need and want the perfect family maths exam out of the way not a care in the world latley and career is getting there..My audition is on sunday and ive decided to be excited and not scared :) ive had a lovely day today with my little friend sizzle and watching the big boys play football was quite entertaining if i must say so myself and im looking forward for a catch up with my beautiful bird tomorrow. My mum is in a v v v good mood which also adds to the happiness of my life right now hehe :) well im off for a bubbly bath by myself...Peace out keep blogging and keep calm..


Quote of the day: ''The Future Looks Bright''

Tuesday, 1 March 2011

I'm STRESSING bloggers i'm SRESSING..

OMG!! so i get a letter saying i have an audition on sunday at redroofs you know the one the preforming arts school where Kate winslet  went to yeah not to much of a biggy!!! im absolutley scared out of my wits and i really am.. i dont normally get nervous before the big day but i this time i have reasons..1. Its an audition for a drama school in LONDON.  2. famous people went there theyve made it big!! and finally 3. i need to get in i cannot and i will repeat Cannot!!!  stay in whitby i would honestly no joke KILL myself its that bad!! so... one 2 minuete dance one 2 minuete song and a 1 minuete monologue ( for those who dont know what a monologue is its more or less a speech by your self!! ) so yeah pretty stressed about it but i'll get there FINGERS CROSSED EY'!.# 

Anyway bloggers have fun dont stress and keep smiling :) xx

Monday, 28 February 2011

into the sky and the night..

Stars shine into my life, not to blind me, not to hurt me but to make everything i have special and beautiful..

Saturday, 26 February 2011

Home Sweet Home..

Hey bloggers its been a while, Well after all that comotion at the airport i was ready to relax in Austria but little did i know that that was the last thing i was going to be doing!! skiing was incredable i totally grasped what to do in the first day i actually thought i was MINT so i decided to do the Black run, and hey im still alive!!! as some of yous know i have bad knees, a crunchy shoulder blade, deformed colar bone and terrable back!! so it didnt really help and by god im paying for it now.. but its all fun and games over there am i right'?! I have had an amzing time over there and didnt really want to leave my family but i'll be alright cos im living with them in september so its all going on the highway. OMG!! in austria they are shit i mean they let 16 year olds drink?!! Yeah mann i was in the shit!! it was brilliant i mean bossing the slopes half cut what more do ya want LOL.. anyways its nice to home and nice to eat some normal food well loving ya and leaving ya till next time my pretty's xxx

Here's some piccieeesss...





Friday, 18 February 2011

ooo Hello wonderland..

I'm off to wonderland well Austria really but come on my imagination is just too cool for just austria!! Where the tree tops glisten where the snow falls peicefully and when i all i can see is smiling people but im deffinatly going to break something and deffinatly going to miss some rather pretty people :) have fun while im gone i will be :D i Love you all v v v muchly and see you when i come HOME <3

Thursday, 17 February 2011

MADD evening MADD day..

Well today was just all round fun fun fun!! i mean first lesson to the day pe well dance well piss around really hahaha :)) i was sooo excited all day for MADD evening  it was just a buzz!! lessons were alright could of been better but that life eyy!! fucking LOL at a certain somebody today fat, ugly, and rather umpa lumpa ishh getting her tongue pierced hahaha WHAT A LAUGH!!! anyway back to tonight was A-mazing just loved it our little cheeky dance :D loveyou girls rather alot we had some fun and giggles :P loving the swing band ''knock knock knock on wood baby'' get me and abbs go!! hahaha. that was the end of a brill day and just have to say at the end of this that i would like to thank Tabitha Glaysher for cheering me up the past few days hehehe and all the rest of my beautifull little cherry pies!! i love everyone and every blogger in this beautiful magical world :) xx

Wednesday, 16 February 2011

been a while..

Hi children, sorry i havent wrote for the past day or so..been abit busy what with all this coursework and dances and audition to sort out doing my head in!! talking about busy tomorrow night's gonna be a pile of fun (N) hahaha no it'll be a laugh! not a lot happened yesterday really apart from getting locked in a bloody cubord in science with Beth mead well i say locked we went in right and she dared me to screw the handle off so i did hahaha then we realized we couldnt get out so yeah good one jess were so imature at times arnt we hun! just cool arnt i. jords meal was good fun night with Tubster what a bird no joke i loved him outside with Tabitha was the funniest thing of the night our little secret though isnt it hunny bun with strawberry icing :) anyway rather tired rather cold and got bone ake all my bones are hurting is that normal? oh well :') nighty night bloggers keep smiling and keep blogging!xxx

Monday, 14 February 2011

Today is valentines day..

14th february,the day of LOVE and also my bird's birthday :) hehe sixteen wow what an age 'get loose'. was on a right low yesterday and this morning tbh but after forth period i just i had to ping to the top and leave all that behind'! Hanaah Dawson i hope you read this because im sorry and also fro making you feel a little ikky i love you you know! :( and also a sorry to Abigail and Tabitha! thanks for being there!! And i have now realised that friends are everything..Anywayyy loving the fact i come home to a valentines card well two so i now have 3 i am very pleased :) although i dont like not knowing who there from!! :') GCSE drama i got an amzing group vvv pleased we gonna be the highlight of that examiners day i'll make sure ehehhe :) Mr bond what a dick!! he is making me and another companion of mine write a paragraph of why we should'nt waste school resorces err excuse me it was a piece of paper and it said hi on it and i only ripped it up and threw it out of the window and you kinda thought it was snow; :S!" huh! anyway carrying on my new jumper for dancing is wayy cool its like strawberries with cream that yummy :) early start in the morning soo i'll tell you about that in another time my pretty's, i'll keep loving ya if ya keep this blogging up!! xxxx

Sunday, 13 February 2011

and say hello to the humming birds..

Morning :) well its nearly not morning but yeah anyway, feeling soo much better this morning was in such a bastard mood yesterday but now im fresh as a daisy and blowing in the right direction! this year is gonna be a good one for me now i have lost all them twats and low lifes im a new person and i really like who it is! im chasing the dreams and i will get there even if its the last thing i do!! my friends well i couldnt ask for better ones and im already excited to meet new ones v v v soon :) well thanks for reading this little outburst hehehe and i'll write to you's later onn chickens, have a lovely day and keep blogging my hunny buns xxx

Saturday, 12 February 2011

and there goes my life.

Crying should be hobbie i do it quite alot well today anyway! LOVE i dont think there is such thing anymore i mean when something springs up from some place thats all a really big surprise i didnt think it would hurt but lets face it im drowning in my own tears so must hurt.. depressing is the word for today and i was so happy for him to come home oh well she a stunner anyway no competiton! thats it for me im done. Blog if ya wanna guys but just dont fall for someone! :')

Saturday and bord out of my skull.

last night was just grim! absolutely nakered now and just ratty with everyone!! i am glad my little precious princesses are coming home today though rarther excited tbh!! :D eeeeeeep! missed em so much it was like not having any arms for a week ha lol. mad evening this week :O beed who's that chick?!' this will be very short and brief cos i really cant be arsed and just in that shitty mood! probably cheer up later on so i'll write you another later my hunni bunnies.. have a nice time blogging peace out for now children xx

Friday, 11 February 2011

NEW HAIR.

THE NEW IMPROVED HAIRSTYLE...

Hehehe how funny :L




why hello there friday..

hi kids :) woke up feeling bright and fresh hahaha did i shite!! i didnt get any sleep cos of my little melly bear rolling all over hehe then my ocd took over i cant get to sleep unless its pitch black and there was little lights everywhere hahaha :L Anyyyyway just chilled with my mam all morning was mint she's a beaut i have to say! well then we went on an adventure to bothoms to get her pennies and went to hairdressers was brill both look same with our little FRINGES  hehee :)) aww cute! felice is obv an absolute stunner and has done a wonderful job thanks hunnie..then ran to the crib where i live and mother was all dressed up she looked lovely bless her n'aww she is a milf i just have to say it cos im cool and nice like that! went to dancing what a laugh my dance teacher is brilliant what an absolute legend! i never laughed so much nearly weed haha :') now having a git photo seshhh with melly and our NEW hair :D night bloggers keep blogging and keep smiling my little pretty's xxxx

Thursday, 10 February 2011

Today was pretty awsome..

well, today was eventfull to say the least woke up late and had some banging messages from my baby mel :') wernt that cute actually get out of bed :L so yeah got out of bed put some tights on and my jumper laddered my tights mint that was the first unlucky thing. Mel came to mine and we just chilled all morning, then went into town and went to heron (N) not gonna repeat that incident second unlucky thing! tiffans was fun umm chips and gravy was nice. nearly got shit on by a bird mint. went swimming well what an adventure that was THING 1 and THING 2 came in my jaw hit bottom of the pool!! honestley why does she love me sooo much!!! follows me everywhere??! so yeah swimming was quite fun :L teaching mel to not hold her nose when she goes under water LOL took me about half an hour infact hahaha loveya chicken pie! Then my bloggers, me and my lil bro went to our dance competition that was brill we WON!  woop woop! proud of him also got an award for best artistic impression buzzin!! miss Benson what an absolute bird :) now its freaky friday for me and melv and looking forward to our hair tomorrow :D keep smiling beautifuls good night god bless! xx

Wednesday, 9 February 2011

Danced the Day away..

Well today was fun and chilled i have to say. started off pretty well mum was in a good mood for a change she actually said ''morning babe'' i was like you alright mam haha wow! Had a surprise waiting for me first lesson internet safety course thing omg, couldnt believe all the shit facebook formspring actually cause :O got to dinner and i just beed had to go to maths with mel gutted mister A and B wernt there!! anywyas got my green light so left and hit the road to dance..what a laugh my baby cat and baba mel ilyour moves and dani and ruth well just dont change your dance its brilliant.!' DT and PE went ok pe was a laugh everyone running around doing volleyball and then theres just me cat and mel dancing in the cornor cos were cool like that ;) got in from school and my auntie lelu's like oh jess will you help me get back on facebook? ohh yeah course what waas i chatting it took me an our to explain what a status was??!!'' BIG LOL. anyways looking forward to spending the next two days with my gorgeous best friend melv before her boyfriend comes home and steals her again!! :( haha. Dominoes pizza for tea hmmm i actually dont see whats the big shit on them but umm there nice thats all :L off to dancing on ma bill cos everyone either in bloody austria or london :(( miss yous please come home :') anyways cool kids im off,.!*

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

Tuesdays are iffy??

Second day of blogging, i still feel cool :) Dont like tuesdays there shit. triple science absolute fail. but Grace coats makes it worth while hahaha our little code to dev haha just ask jarm :L ohh she's a beaut! to top the morning off Brindle and his belly and body oder!! nioce BIG (n) Drama was good getting split up from the group joe thinking i'd been naughty but actually im just special kk?!! oh and then saying are you still classed as white british if your from whales pffft see told you i was speshh!! dance at dinner what a laugh dani and ruth you had me and mel in stiches hahaha :D talking about mel i love you lots and lots dont really think we could get any cooler baby our quote for the day ''never above you never below you ALWAYS beside you'' n'aww. i love my moomin. dancing soon absolute beed i have to say fame im gonna live forever over and over again! LOL. Ahh well get to see my beautiful second family later at caedmon whooo helen and mike birds mel babe ry my dudee :) shit day good night and thats me :P smile and blog..xxx

Monday, 7 February 2011

MY POINT SHOES AND BARBIE :)




:) AWW  how sweet :L


its monday, yawn.

My first blog wow i feel cool. Dont really know what im supposed to write if im honest. i do know that today was bang tidy a bit depressing but ok. i mean these kids shooting off to austria to go boss some slopes, who are ya?? inconsidering cunts. kidding i love you and miss you all. oh well mel my beautiful baby just makes up for it having her all to myself for a change tar smi :) hehehe.
My day consisted of waking up late storey of my life, dragging myself to college met some stunners in that place i suppose, met some ugly twats to but there not worth my time. drama was fun with steph bless her :L legend. dinner was the usual and the food gets worse i bought a cake was'nt nice but as i thought melv gobbled it down like a dustbin! nice end to the day Brindle woahh his room smells nice (n) so yeah got home decided to start blogging its true its fun haha trying to work out whats what is'nt but you know how it is right? should really start that coursework but nahh chilling takes over..anyway thank god monday is over BIG yawn! keeping smiling and keep blogging..xxx